November 30, 16

好久沒有寫日記，來寫一下。今年又剩下一個月了，真是覺得對明年倍感興奮與期待，生活突然的被開啟，也有了許多新的關係，與新的方向。
八月的時候又再次經歷了精神與肉體上的崩塌，（這是否是敏感的人的宿命而後輕易的領悟它？）深陷其中，無法抽身。這次之後的康復與清醒，把這兩年來對愛戀的執著跟它所帶來的起起伏伏都一併的消退下去，若我還有什麼值得留念，大概只剩下那份兩個人一起時的穩定與平靜。也知道我所認識的戀情原來還離我有點遙遠。我的青春還在期待著我的來到。這一大段懷抱愛戀的時期，暫且成為一片巨大的空白與幻覺，在這裡面，最多的時間是在跟恐懼面對面，一個人時的不安分與沒有安全感，完全地掌握了我的每個行動與決定，我越是去思考它，它越是在我身上。沒想到竟會如此茫然與無助，失去另一份的自己，眼睜睜的還是要生活下去。覺得不可思議，也知道所有人也都曾經歷，這或許是人的一部份，我們沒辦法把所有我們喜歡的事物都一直留在身邊。而，當我們踏上雲端後，也將重重的摔落。真的不害怕那個讓我自己討厭的那個我繼續存在下去，那個醜陋的、妄為的我，今年真是讓我好好地看見了妳（我？）一次。

慣性地長時間跟自己相處，以為已經是孤獨的好手，但是當我不再能跟自己相處的時候，卻是不知道該怎麼辦，馬上慌了手腳。你們的陪伴對我如此重要，就算只是幾句三言兩語或是一個招呼我都好開心，生活上人們帶來的溫存，是我繼續前進的動力，也是我的方向之一，還有好多個世界我還沒有去過，好多個個性我還沒有聊過，也還有好多個我，我還要去認識。

也許就在這裡跨出我的下一步，跟我的下一段緣分，在這裡跟你們分手，知道我們又將重逢。

Grimes - David

LYRICS:

Thinking up stories in my mind to relax, every single night.
There are no responsibilities there, everything's alright.
Every time I'm down, I dream, I dream of you.
It's not worth it, though, forgetting everything I know.
I need my old friend sitting next to me.
Time is everything (a companion has?) to be-
Where does my heart go when you die? 
How did that moment pass me by? Oh...
How can you look so good and feel the way you do?
I never knew... Oh, I never knew, Oh...
Got me dressin' in my Sunday-best; golden spires of light.
Hours pass like they are minutes or less. Everything is alright.
Every time I'm down, I dream, I dream of you.
It's not worth it, though, forgetting everything I know. 
I need my old friend sitting next to me.
YOU were everything a companion has to be -
Where does my heart go when you die?
How did that moment pass me by?
Ohhh
How can you look so good and feel the way you do?
I never knew
Oh, I never knew...
Where does my heart go when you die?
How did that moment pass me by?
Ohh...
How can you look so good and feel the way you do?
I never knew..
Oh, I never knew...
I never knew...

我與世界 語錄

突然被迫掉進數字年月裡巨大的河流之中，於我還未甦醒，亦看不清若大世界的真實，殘酷的接受，迎面而來。我張開雙眼，左邊是那已擁有全世界，眼目柔和的母親，右邊是那帶著理想，堅定勇敢的少女，而我，站在他們的身旁，我們望向遠方。是的，那銳力的眼光，也在那彼方。— 妤 洪 我與世界 語錄

Let's Stay in Wild World

No words for Fantasy Fantastic hands work LOL

YU HONG ART WORD 

LOVE

Learning Japanese all stuff... LOL 

I NEVER THOUGHT THAT I WOULD BE LONGLY LIKE NOW ANYWAY, AND ALL OF THIS COULD JUST WAITING FOR THE MOMENT WHICH I COULD DRAWING LIKE I USED TO BE...  

some small remarkable things

1. 22 yrs Birth day gifts from my sister : Talking Honey Bear ( Korillakuma )

2. A blonde hair man likeness of my drawing  

January 8, 16 : 2015

  

We do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet 

inwardly we are being renewed day by day.

- 2 Corinthians 4:16 (NIV)

  The year before last, I drop out from my cram school, and I start keep myself staying in my room, and this is everything What I Think About started. I start study by myself after I thought I couldn't hear what teacher saying at cram school, and, I'm sure when I found out I got this problem It's time I feels like I got ADHD.(But I didn't even got to see a doctor) When last year coming, I start oversleeping everyday and got nothing to do, and I feel lazy to read a book even I knew I wanted, and I spend time in smoking and listen music all the time and think about NOTHING. 'Nothing Means Everything' this thinking always occupied my mine in that moment. Drifting in my own mind is only thing I can do in that time, and it recalls me back a crush person who I got before three years ago and I start feels like a got all kinds of Hallucination about that person, but I couldn't even figure out it. I really lost sense of time within those days. Sometimes, I even start think someone is hacker my computer and peering my steps on the Internet. After all this massive stuff I got and I told my mom I want to got suicide again and, she told me I could go to Australia for a while If I want, so, I do. I went to AUS few months and, still feel I was drifting in my mind and I didn’t even want to play any fun things in that period. After I went back to Taiwan, I start myself working in a restaurant for three months, and while this time I start can feel a little ’Time Is There.’ Within those days, I seldom connect to my friends only a few but they also are not live close with me, a special one who is living in Tokyo that times and we always messages each other, We two always want keeping our daily drawing routine and we both enjoy some religions ideal. Recently, She is back from Tokyo and we spending few times in Taiwan, and tonight, we will together going to Church.
  January is the new years beginning and, I was feel like I was Relive, everything seems okay now even I was still stay in my room and feels like I was a ‘Nothing’. This period looks like I was totally upside down… drop out from my routine study, feeling most sadness within myself and lost the sense of time when I was try to keep doing my things… Etc. Now I feel all things is just a foundation, a ‘Reason’ I thought I could build more things than I should. The worst part is always makes things becoming worthy than ever. After all, when I recall back 2015, I would remember how was a life could be when I only got a sense called Solitude and, how is it can make things go up from our inner-self...