Stand alone

Save your tears
for the day
when our pain is far behind
on your feet
come with me
we are soldiers stand or die

Save your fears
take your place
save them for the judgement day
fast and free
follow me
time to make the sacrifice
we rise or fall

I'm a soldier, born to stand
in this waking hell I am
witnessing more than I can compute

pray myself we don't forget
lies, betrayed and the oppressed
please give me the strength to be the truth

people facing the fire together
if we don't, we'll lose all we have found

I’m asked this question all the time: “Why am I attracted to people who are wrong for me?” And the answer is quite simple, actually:
Because your wounded self is doing the attracting.

feeling gone.

beware of picturing yourself in a relationship as the unselfish, giving one who sacrifices everything for the other. This is a blatant ego game in which the ultimate purpose may be to gain control over the other by manipulating feelings of obligation

live in Christ

   I have to write something here... and keep encourage myself to live in Christ. believe in christ, this is truly amazing. When I feel upside down about my original emotion, God bring me back, the song, the words, the prayer...it's all helpful like my first time try to recover my sadness experience... it's hard to bring yourself go into right position by you own, and you know, life is always already bring you down, so! God is my first choice to living in love.

''That kind of love is emotional in nature but not obsessional. It is a love that unites reason and emotion. It involves an act of the will and requires discipline, and it recognizes the need for personal growth. Our most basic emotional need is not to fall in love but to be genuinely loved by another, to know a love that grows out of reason and choice, not instinct.''
___ The five love language.

I would not accept the bull shit anymore
I know how weak it looks like
there is no more mercy
I want dead
dead is only things I recognize you
I'm not interested
but it's my first time recognizing what is love


the curious fearful fragile powerful girl is mine
you wont get her